Child of My Heart
Oh, my child, child of my heart.There is so much to tell you, where shall I start?
I know you're out there, maybe even now.
I know that God will lead you to me, someway somehow.
I may never fell you kick or hear your heart beat for that first time.
But, from the moment that I hold you, there will be no doubt that you are mine.
Maybe even now, your birth mom is considering what to do.
I can only imagine what she is going through.
Maybe she is a child herself, with dreams yet to fulfill.
Maybe she is not ready for a little one, but I know she loves you still.
I know her heart must be breaking, and at night she cannot sleep.
I know if it were possible, its you she'd want to keep.
On the other side, I am waiting here.
I can sense her love for you and also her fear.
I wish that I could tell her of all the sleepless nights,
Of all the tests and procedures and the prayers that this time just maybe it would right.
I could tell her of all the tears, of all the prayers I've had.
Of the times that I felt so lost, of all the times I've been sad.
I can offer a Mom to kiss away the hurt and tuck you in at night.
I can offer a Dad to teach you to play ball and how to fly a kite.
I can offer a home and a family complete with Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, Granny and Grandpa.
They are all waiting for you, and loving from afar.
I will share my love with you each and every day.
I will tell you of the woman who loved you in every single way.
I will make sure that you know just the sacrifice she made.
And if you someday want to meet her,
I will never try to dissuade.
For without this special woman,
I would have never had the chance to love you.
My dream of being a Mom (again), would have never come true.
So, please if you are out there.
Please know I care.
I know what a sacrifice you are making, and I would never judge you, that would be unfair.
I am praying for you even now and please know from the very start.
This child will always be a part of you and a child of my "heart".
cpy. Vicki
